Monday, January 26, 2009

Lonely Marine Wife...No, this isn't a personal ad!

I am just going to say it, "Being a military spouse can be a rotten job at times!"

There, it is in the open for all my bloggers to read. It may make me sound whiny, or bratty, but it is just the honest to goodness truth!

I never thought I'd be living this life to begin with. In fact, Mr. Marine's and my "courtship" took a little hiatus when he informed me he would be joining the Marine Corps while at the University of Georgia. I said, "it is honorable that you want to serve your country, but I will NEVER be a military wife...especially not a MARINE wife."

Well, our story picked up a few years later (save for another post) and here I am...traveling the country, uprooting my life every time his life beckons, leaving friends behind and spending many a lonely night all in support of the Good Ol' USA.

I struggle with this emotion "bitterness" because I know many wives make this sacrifice without complaint. I am proud to be a military wife. My husband leads some of the bravest men and women for a greater cause and all I can do is whine that I don't have a shopping buddy? As one of my dearest friends said to me one day, "I (my friend) can't complain because all I do is shop, drink, raise our kids and hang out with the girls while he is gone. He risks his life and I don't."

That is Soooooo not my philosophy! Mr. Marine and I did not pick-up until he had graduated from UGA and was in Office Candidate School (or OCS to my fellow spouses.) So I already had an established job in Houston, I was living by family and prepared to spend my years on a front porch swatting mosquitoes off my citronella drenched skin!

Then I got married and relocated to po-dunk North Carolina. I cried every night. Then I met wives who cried too. We learned that coffee in the morning, margaritas at lunch and wine in the evening made the crappy times better! Now, I am not a drunk...but any wife who has gone through a deployment will agree that there are times when a stiff drink is all you want! 

Now we are living in the Midwest. I was thinking heartland of the US, down-to-earth ladies that I will make friends with immediately. Ummm...no. Now, I know some of my blog readers are from the Midwest so I must ask, "Is everyone this hard to get to know?" 

I feel like I am the new kid in school and the cheerleaders don't like me and I am foreign to the computer nerds (which I guess us Southerners are foreign to most people). Everyone is so clique-ish here. 

I am used to bangin' down the neighbor's door with food, drinks, housewarming gift...something. Here, no one cares who moves in because they already have their friends! 

I am just asking for some advice from any Midwesterners that might read this. Please help!

The Midwest is like another country to me and I just need someone who has traveled these roads before to give me a roadmap. 

I am all to familiar with the Southern way of life...but I am at a loss when it comes to the middle of this great country!

7 comments:

  1. Oh hun, my heart is breaking for you. I am stuck in a podunk army post in the middle of the midwest as well. Fortunately, I have the most incredible group of friends I could have ever asked for. What I did was join my post's OSC group (officer spouse group). We meet monthly for luncheons, volunteer, and hang out for cocktails and dinner parties. Is there anything like that you can join??

    I promise you aren't the only lonely, bitter spouse out there. You are not alone!!

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  2. I feel your pain! While A)I'm not a military wife, and B) I've lived in the Midwest all my life, I know how difficult it can be to meet people in a new city.
    Since my husband and I bought a house in a particular town over a year ago, one neighbor has stopped by to say hello. It's hard to put yourself out there when you don't feel welcomed.
    If you can get involved in a group or activity that you enjoy, do it. Overcoming your nerves and showing up is the hardest part!

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  3. I hear you. We moved to P'cola from the Midwest, and we weren't married until right before left for T-38 training and now EWO school. So I didn't get involved with the squardon wives clubs, and now he's gone to Texas, I'm here and all our friends are gone. I have seriously 2 friends here and it can get really tough. I can't wait till we move to NC, get to live together again, and I can be with our friends and meet other wives. Most of the Mr.'s friends here were totally SINGLE. Where in the Midwest are you?

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  4. You are more than welcome!! I know how scary and unnerving it is to be literally stranded in some strange town. I hope you can find some sort of coffee group, or something to volunteer with on the weekends...? Are any of your husband's friends married?

    Hang in there!!

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  5. Where are you in the Midwest? I know some people in Nebraska. You aren't by chance THERE, are you?

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  6. um. yeah... it's a midwest thing. all of my friends i made form church and i think they only started talking to me because they saw me all the time and the pastor encouraged saying hi to people ythey didn't know. but other than that... it's a difficult breed to fit into.

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  7. Funny...I said the exact same thing! "I am NOT going to be a military wife." Flash forward a few years and I'm following my husband to GERMANY. I've done my fair share of crying too :)

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